Letting Go.

Hmm, no no no!
Nothing bad happened to me :)
Just that my bio-clock is really screwed, so since I'm wide awake, I might as well share with you guys something!

Letting Go.
Yes, you aren't seeing things.
This is something that everyone claims to be easier said than done.
When you're emotionally attached to something/someone, it's hard for you to actually let it go.
But really, I don't think it's too hard to let go some things that you hold dearly to.
I mean, if you don't try, you'll never know.
I believe that many will say things like, 'I've tried, but I just can't' or something along the line.

Sorry to be so blunt, but really, WAKE UP.
It isn't hard if you see things in different perspective.
Just posted it on my Facebook 2 hours ago, thought it would be good if I share it with more people :)

In life, we have to learn how to let go, in order to gain more.

No point in hanging on to something that may not be rightfully yours even though you love it so much. With a lighter heart, you'll see things in a much brighter side and you'll realise that you've gained so much by letting go just one thing :)

 A week ago, I was dwelling over some issues and was really emotionally unstable to the point that I ALMOST went to consult a psychiatrist, then I realised this book that I bought a month ago, unread on my shelf.
It's a book with a title that I hope to achieve, 'Love Myself'.
It's a book written by Taiwanese though, hence everything's in traditional chinese.
Fret not, as I will be sharing more from the book when I've finished reading it! :)

All right, back to 'letting go'.
Yes, it's really really really hard to do it, when you have so many stumbling factors like 'I've given so much and that's what I've gotten in return? I can't possibly let go since I've put in so much time and effort!'...
I understand, not that I've been through things like that, but I know where you're coming from.
But hey, if you can really let go, you'll learn so much more.


I have a scenario, but I don't think I would want to post it up here because it can be really hurting and one-sided.
Plus, I'm inexperienced in relationship, so yeah, I don't think I can understand how it feels.
But ANYWAY, 'letting go' applies to everything.
Not just a relationship, and also like your favourite pet, your favourite bag...etc.
When you've decided to let go or have already let go, you'll realise that you'll gain so much more than when you're holding on to one thing.
Hope that it helps when things are really bothering you.

Life is short, don't ever let one thing to hinder you when you can do so much more during that 'hindered period'.
Smile! :)

Hmmmmmmm :)

It's almost 4am, and I can't sleep.
So rather than tossing and turning on my big bed doing nothing, I'm here to revive this little space that I've ignore for quite some time.

My busy and hectic schedule almost killed me, but I'm glad that I've pulled through.
As some of you might have seen it on Facebook as I've been 'actively' promoting it, I was in this great event called 'Guinnes Live!'.
It's a great 5 months with everyone, as all of us gathered together because of our passion, MUSIC :)
Though my team didn't win, but it isn't about the result, it's the process that matters.
Singing with a full band and a relatively big stage isn't an easy task.
However, I've learnt so much that I believe that I can handle all challenges that are gonna come!
Hmm, probably not ALL, but I believe that I can handle most.
I'm still young though, there are so many things out there that are awaiting me :D

Oh, and I've heard the sweetest thing through this competition.
Someone told me this, 'No matter how's the result gonna be, you've won, because you have me'.
Not sure if I'm allowed to post this, but I'm really blessed and fortunate.
Yes, you guys are right.
I'm in love XP

This isn't easy y'know, because I've been maligned, back-stabbed, gossiped about during this competition.
Well, every industry has it's own politics, nothing new.
Just that I'm sort of taken aback by what came to me as I'm the youngest in this competition, and I'm well protected by my mum that I have no idea how to handle.
It sucks, I'm serious.
Who likes being claimed as someone that you aren't?
However, since I chose this path, I got to do nothing.
Not trying to point fingers or whatsoever by posting this here, but just a piece of advice to people who are keen to enter the entertainment industry, DO THINK TWICE! :)

Anyway, yes, I'm happy and that's the most important thing in life isn't it?
Oh and, I'm getting ready for my audition in NAFA, hope that I can get a place!
Since I'm ready to devote myself to Arts, I'm gonna make it!!! :D
Wish me luck! :D

Ahem, just a news to share with you guys, I'm gonna form a 3 piece acoustic band soon.
Do stay tuned!
Well, I shall stop here!
Thanks for reading, to... erm... whoever is still here?
Hahaha, thanks for your existence! :D
NIGHTY!

D-Day: Guangzhou, here I come!

4 and a half more hours to be at the airport, and I'll be off to Guangzhou with Team Shanghai Dolly and Guinness people!
I'm excited and nervous, as it's my first time going to China.

Yes, it's my first time. And I don't get to go overseas frequently due to my family's financial status.
I've been to Hong Kong twice and Taiwan twice, and the 3 out of the 4 times of my trip, I'm with my school.
I'm serious, this is how bad my situation is.

I've been on a frequent trip to Genting, but it's only Malaysia, it's nowhere far and I don't spend when I go there.
Though I envy those people who've been to faraway lands like The European Countries and The States, I've never asked mum why can't I go to such places because I know that I can't.
Or I should say, we can't.

I don't blame mum, it isn't her fault.
I don't even quarrel with her when I can't go to a lot of places because I understand what kind of a situation am I in.
Hence, I would grab hold of chances to go overseas with my school, as school's trips are heavily subsidised and I don't usually need to pay for the trip, apart from my expenses over there.

Therefore, I'm really excited and am greatly appreciative of Guinness to allow me and my group to go over to Guangzhou as my team, Team Shanghai Dolly, is the leading group in November.
You know, I've never been so lucky in my life that I would ever be sponsored to go overseas, I'm grateful.
Really.

Anyway, I'm not gonna sleep as I don't wanna be grumpy in the morning due to lack of sleep.
Bye everyone, see you all when I'm back! <3

GUINNESS LIVE 2011 Part 1 :)

As the title suggested, I'm here to talk about one of the biggest event that is happening!
Organised by GUINNESS, and partnering with St. James and Funkie Monkies Productions,

GUINNESS LIVE 2011

The audition took place on last Saturday, 15 October 2011, at FM Pop Music School.
I'm not aware of this event at all, as I have not been using the computer for quite some time (that explains my absence from the cyber world, except for twitter, sorry! :x), and what's more, this event is only widely spread through music schools and people that are already performing in gigs, therefore I'm ignorant of this.
TOTALLY ignorant of that.
I only got to know about the audition just a day before it.
Hence, without much preparation, I went into the room with a wee bit of confident, and sang the song that I'm super familiar with. (yes, it's the same old oldies that I've been loving)
Things went on kinda smoothly (that's what I think).
And Eric laoshi knows that I've participated in Campus Superstar (but it's definitely not due to this reason, I'm serious).
I'm in the top 12! (it's really a coincidence, because I have affinity with top 12, like seriously. LOL!)

Anyway! Introducing to you, GUINNESS LIVE 2011 TOP 12! With our mentors! :D


And with Eric Ng!

This was taken in Dragonfly@St. James Power Station.
Love how the photos were taken, it's very Guinness-y.

And here's my personal shoot! Please please please ignore that bump on my chin, hormonal change!!! :(

And yes, I'm the youngest in the 12.
However, I'm happy to say that I'm not the kid of the bunch.

Oh! And here's my group:

Left to Right: Regine, Benita (ME!), Aydan (My long lost brother) and Jeremy

TEAM SHANGHAI DOLLY! And we have Team Dragonfly and Team Firefly, but let me be a little bias and talk about my group first all right! Will talk about the other groups in my next post! :D


And our mentor, who's in the middle: WILLIAM SCORPION!
I bet you have no idea what's his age, because we have no idea as well!
But my verdict is that, he doesn't look old at all.
And I love his accent when he speaks English and Cantonese!
I really wanna speak as well as him! (gah, this reminds me that I have to practise my singing =.=)
With his 28 years of singing experience, I believe our group is gonna learn and grow a lot!
I really wanna improve on my stage presence, I feel that I'm lacking something. (sigh!)

Just to side track a little, have you noticed that I claimed Aydan as my long lost brother?
It's not a joke or what, but there are comments made by others, saying that we look alike.
Not identical, but our features are somewhat similar.
Even my mum says that we look alike, except our jawlines.
This is kinda insane, but it has really happened.

So, as I was saying about stage presence and growing,
Starting from 1st November, every Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday, at



These 3 outlets respectively, at 10pm, be part of Guinness Live 2011!
Join us and watch us improve in this 4 months! :D

Food for thought.

Something that I've posted 2 days ago, here sharing with you guys :)

Try to see things at a brighter side, and you'll see the light. Do everything with a smile, and all will be worthwhile :)

I love what I'm currently going through now, even though I'm still lacking a lot of things, I'm thankful for what I've got.

It takes a lot, for me to reach such a state.
Finally,
I'm not feeling inferior.
I'm no longer emotional.
I'm in fact smiling everyday.

This is something that I've always wanted, to smile and laugh with confidence.
I'm definitely going to continue this, and no one is gonna take that smile away from me :)
Hope that everyone can laugh with all your might, because a happy person makes a pretty person :D

I'm Back! Sort of~

Haven't been blogging, not that I've lost touch of blogging, just that I don't have the time to.
From the start of June Holiday, I haven't gotten a time to really rest a little.
Received a shocking news which led me grieving even now, couldn't go to school because I was at Great-Granny's wake for the first week of June Holiday.
It's been 3 weeks, but I'm not letting go, completely.
Takes time to do so, because she's been with me ever since I was born.

When I see my grandma crying and saying that her mum is gone, my heart aches real badly.
It's like, she's received 72 years of love from her mum and she was all healthy before she passed away.
It's really something that isn't easy to let go of.
But well, life and death isn't something that any one of us can control.
So... Yeah.

And life goes on, with knowing that I didn't do well for my Mid Year papers.
Seriously, all these just made me gave up on working hard.
I'm sick and tired of all these, hope to quit school right now.
Thinking of it for 3 weeks, and the thought of it is strong, still.
Damn. Sick. And. Tired. Of. All. Those. Useless. Studying.

And the only motivation for me to go to school is Dance Practise.
Full-stop.


Whatever. Stop this shit Benita.
Goodnight people.
Hate to say this, but I hate school.

Mr. Taxi

I'm gonna learn this dance soon...
Just wait ;)