MY heart.

Heart.Beat.
My heart is beating, I can hear it.
Whenever I'm with you, I feel so happy.
However, we are just friends.
Just. Friends.

I like you, since the second time I saw you.
I enjoy teasing you, I enjoy making fun of you.
I love to see how blur you are.
I enjoy your smiles.
I love your voice, it's so special and so heartwarming.
My mum loves it too, that's important as well.

We met because of music, started off being strangers.
Never conversed, but managed to call each others names without asking when we first talked.
When we are beside each other, I feel so far from you.
Because you are much taller than me.
But I manage to feel close to you, when we both sing...

Music is our connection.
Correction, my connection to you.
I feel you, your presence, your everything.
But to you, I'm may be just a friend.
Or worse, just a little sister to you.

What's a relationship? I don't know.
What's love? I have no idea.
How to communicate with people properly? I have no freaking a clue.
Seriously, you said that you are not worthy of me if we were to be together.
However, I thought it another way.

Now, I'm officially letting go.
I know that it's impossible, because I feel that it's impossible.
No point hanging on to something which doesn't belong to me.
What's more, others think that you are suitable with another girl.

I know that you wouldn't read this. No one would read this.
Just. Wanna blog about it.
At least, I felt better.
Nights. :')

POWER DUET!

Haven't been coming up to post because school's been a tiring one for me.
ANYWAY! I do have a purpose coming up here!

People who added me on Facebook know that I'm currently undergoing a competition organised by Mediacorp!
It's called Power Duet 《K歌2擊隊》, where 2 people come together and we sing duets!
So, me and Daryl just went for the audition to try our luck.
Well, lady luck has been with us for that, we got in!

The recording of the Preliminary Round has been conducted and recorded, and thankful to say, WE GOT THROUGH TO THE QUARTER-FINAL!

Anyway, this is Me and Daryl :)

It's just an experience, that's something that we reminded ourselves constantly...
Therefore, we enjoyed every moment that we are on stage singing, conveying our music to the listeners and audiences~
No competition, just for the sake of passion for music!

HOWEVER! We are not gonna just sing to people who we know.
WE ARE INVITING YOU!!!!! YES YOU! To our quarter-final!

Information -
Date: 6th March 2011
Time: 6PM - 10.30PM
Venue: Mediacorp Studio 1 (there will be people bringing you in, no worries :) )
Our Group Name: DBX 東北弦 ( A similar pronunciation as North-East Line in Mandarin :D)
What to bring: Yourself and your voice to help us in cheering!!

Interested parties, please do visit our page at HERE!
You have to 'LIKE' the page to view information though :)
It's our alternative platform to express our music as we will be uploading videos of us practicing and singing!
SO STAY TUNE AND THANKS A LOT!

Alternatively, you can comment at this post if you are interested in going :D

P.S, So sorry, I got it wrongly. We got into the quarter finals I mean. So sorry for the wrong information >.<

Hectic life I have.

School has only OFFICIALLY started for 3 days, and I'm falling sick.
It got worse, to be truthful.
Was already sick before Chinese New Year, got better during Chinese New Year, and got worse from Monday onwards.
This sucks, seriously.
I wonder if it is my problem for not resting during break times when I hasn't had enough sleep the day before.
I was doing assignments like mad, not knowing the time and just constantly doing.

I haven't felt this for a long time, I WAS like this, back in Primary School.
The passion to study, the urge to do well.
Hell, I hope I was like this last year.

Life is now different, when I started to REALLY pull up my socks and chased all the way...
But it seems like my body is telling me to slow down because I have TOO many things to do...
Tell me what to do?
I really need to buck up and strive for the best!
Next year is an important year...

New school term :)

School started 2 weeks ago, and I'm starting to dread it.
Oh well, I know it's plain useless to whine and complain over it.
It's my choice to walk this path, I cannot regret.
I'm not regretting either :)
It's just, tired...

So, freshmen are in, the school is lively and of course, noisy again.
Ha ha, I'm gonna feel young because of them, despite me going to enter a phase of life soon!
Yeah, SOON!!! :)
Can't wait yo! :)
Blah blah blah!

Wasn't feeling too good yesterday, but it was yesterday.
And the reason for me feeling down was stupid, unreasonable and immature.
Can't help it, I couldn't really get out of it, still.
However, I believe that I will, soon :)
I'm gonna be 18, and I have to act like one!

Anyway, I have a junior who got famous in the first day of school.
Nope, wait, I should say that she's infamous because she commented that my school girls are ugly, she couldn't take it.
Oh well, good for her man, since she's SO confident about her looks.
Good luck to her in Touch Rugby team :)

HAPPY RABBIT YEAR IN ADVANCE YO! :D

Let's Talk!

Hey, how's everything?
I'm not sure if anyone's still reading my blog, but still, I'll continue updating this little blog of mine. :)
ANYWAY!
School's been great, at least I'm happy!
It's like, even though things been rather cliche and boring at the same time, but still, I'm enjoying every moment I'm in!
I love to talk to people who talks to me, I'm loving how well my relationship with people is going on.
I realised, things wouldn't be bad, as long as I walked out of the situation that trapped myself.
Dance is just so AWESOME! :)

Just a short blog though, about the variety which Channel U is currently airing.
Appearance is important, I agree with that.
However, what most Asians do, is to find faults from themselves to improve and be better.
BUT! Some extreme cases are whereby, they are ALWAYS finding RIDICULOUS fault on themselves.
For example, a 166cm height girl weighs 43kg and she thinks that she's fat.
How ridiculous can that be, like I mean, YOU ARE ALREADY underweight.
Don't be stupid!

Okay, I'm always saying that I'm fat, but I think I am at least a reasonable case!
I'm about 159 - 160 cm tall, but I am 48kg.
I WAS ONCE 52KG OKAY!
Well, at least I think, just about 4 more kilograms to lose, and I'm consider healthy and tone :)
I'm not afraid to say it, because I'm happy with how I am now.
What's with the weight and all?
It's all a myth when people say, skinny = pretty (huh? ARE YOU REALLY SERIOUS?)
It's not like you are going to be a celebrity, and not all celebrities are HELL skinny.
WAKE UP!
You HAVE to be yourself and be proud of YOURSELF.

You are a special one, no one can replace and NO ONE can be LIKE you.
Remember this yeah? :)
CHEERS YO!
Adios!

P,S I can't wait for Chinese New Year for I don't know what reason. HEE!

Just Like That! :D

There's this new girl group debuted this year, this month.
I believe that they will rock the new music scene in Korea, they are Piggy Dolls.
The trio adds up to the weight of more than 200 kilograms, but their confidence wins it all.
Moreover, they CAN REALLY SING!

This group reminds me of Big Mama though, as they are similarly, a group that doesn't sell appearance.
Purely, solely, MUSIC :)
I've always liked Big Mama, due to their powerful and emotional vocals.
You guys might think, 'Hey, they aren't pretty and moreover, they aren't appearance-wise appealing! Why would I like them?'
Oh well, I'm just THIS different, don't you think so? :D

I've always been focusing on non-idols, if you guys realised.
The first and main reason that I like/adore/fancy/whatever you can say a singer/group will always be the music quality that they produce.
Vocal-wise to be the first, talents to be the second.
Looks will ALWAYS be something that I would look, that's when you have the talent. :)


Look at them, Piggy Dolls, do you find them ugly?
Well, I don't.
The confidence that they portrait doesn't EVEN show that they are ugly.
At least they don't find themselves ugly!

I want this confidence, just like that!
I may not be skinny, but I'm toned. :)
There may be a lot of clothes for skinny girls to fit in and you girls might look good in it, and a lot of guys loving those skinny girls.
Girls CAN be confident in being skinny, but they can't despise people like ME for the inability of being as skinny as them.
I'm special.
Everyone has their own charms, no one can step on it.
Right? :D

Phew, I'm relieved.
I had this confidence to say what I've been bottling up, and I would like to say, I can be as pretty as any skinny girls out there because I'm confident about myself.
I AM JUST LIKE THAT! :D


Annyeong, Goodbye, Adios! :D

NEW YEAR!

I know that I'm like, LATE.
But nevertheless, HAPPY NEW YEAR~
Oh and anyway, it's not yet the bunny year as it will only be when Chinese New Year says 'Hi' to us yeah?

I'm so sorry that I have not been updating this blog and it's now in Intensive Care Unit.
I don't mean to leave it like this, but I'm really busy.
School Holidays been really fruitful, packed and amazing!
Preparation for Oral Presentation,
Preparation for Singapore Youth Festival 2011 (Dance),
Serangoon Global Classroom Experience (Dance) - TAIWAN!,
And last but not least, WORK!

Encountered many things, many people in the end of year 2010 and I'm really happy!
Many details will be noted down in my little diary, book-wise and HERE!
However, I need to go off now as I have to work later on.

Therefore, once again, HAPPY NEW YEAR AIGHT? :D
Love, Benita!!! <3