D-Day: Guangzhou, here I come!

4 and a half more hours to be at the airport, and I'll be off to Guangzhou with Team Shanghai Dolly and Guinness people!
I'm excited and nervous, as it's my first time going to China.

Yes, it's my first time. And I don't get to go overseas frequently due to my family's financial status.
I've been to Hong Kong twice and Taiwan twice, and the 3 out of the 4 times of my trip, I'm with my school.
I'm serious, this is how bad my situation is.

I've been on a frequent trip to Genting, but it's only Malaysia, it's nowhere far and I don't spend when I go there.
Though I envy those people who've been to faraway lands like The European Countries and The States, I've never asked mum why can't I go to such places because I know that I can't.
Or I should say, we can't.

I don't blame mum, it isn't her fault.
I don't even quarrel with her when I can't go to a lot of places because I understand what kind of a situation am I in.
Hence, I would grab hold of chances to go overseas with my school, as school's trips are heavily subsidised and I don't usually need to pay for the trip, apart from my expenses over there.

Therefore, I'm really excited and am greatly appreciative of Guinness to allow me and my group to go over to Guangzhou as my team, Team Shanghai Dolly, is the leading group in November.
You know, I've never been so lucky in my life that I would ever be sponsored to go overseas, I'm grateful.
Really.

Anyway, I'm not gonna sleep as I don't wanna be grumpy in the morning due to lack of sleep.
Bye everyone, see you all when I'm back! <3

GUINNESS LIVE 2011 Part 1 :)

As the title suggested, I'm here to talk about one of the biggest event that is happening!
Organised by GUINNESS, and partnering with St. James and Funkie Monkies Productions,

GUINNESS LIVE 2011

The audition took place on last Saturday, 15 October 2011, at FM Pop Music School.
I'm not aware of this event at all, as I have not been using the computer for quite some time (that explains my absence from the cyber world, except for twitter, sorry! :x), and what's more, this event is only widely spread through music schools and people that are already performing in gigs, therefore I'm ignorant of this.
TOTALLY ignorant of that.
I only got to know about the audition just a day before it.
Hence, without much preparation, I went into the room with a wee bit of confident, and sang the song that I'm super familiar with. (yes, it's the same old oldies that I've been loving)
Things went on kinda smoothly (that's what I think).
And Eric laoshi knows that I've participated in Campus Superstar (but it's definitely not due to this reason, I'm serious).
I'm in the top 12! (it's really a coincidence, because I have affinity with top 12, like seriously. LOL!)

Anyway! Introducing to you, GUINNESS LIVE 2011 TOP 12! With our mentors! :D


And with Eric Ng!

This was taken in Dragonfly@St. James Power Station.
Love how the photos were taken, it's very Guinness-y.

And here's my personal shoot! Please please please ignore that bump on my chin, hormonal change!!! :(

And yes, I'm the youngest in the 12.
However, I'm happy to say that I'm not the kid of the bunch.

Oh! And here's my group:

Left to Right: Regine, Benita (ME!), Aydan (My long lost brother) and Jeremy

TEAM SHANGHAI DOLLY! And we have Team Dragonfly and Team Firefly, but let me be a little bias and talk about my group first all right! Will talk about the other groups in my next post! :D


And our mentor, who's in the middle: WILLIAM SCORPION!
I bet you have no idea what's his age, because we have no idea as well!
But my verdict is that, he doesn't look old at all.
And I love his accent when he speaks English and Cantonese!
I really wanna speak as well as him! (gah, this reminds me that I have to practise my singing =.=)
With his 28 years of singing experience, I believe our group is gonna learn and grow a lot!
I really wanna improve on my stage presence, I feel that I'm lacking something. (sigh!)

Just to side track a little, have you noticed that I claimed Aydan as my long lost brother?
It's not a joke or what, but there are comments made by others, saying that we look alike.
Not identical, but our features are somewhat similar.
Even my mum says that we look alike, except our jawlines.
This is kinda insane, but it has really happened.

So, as I was saying about stage presence and growing,
Starting from 1st November, every Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday, at



These 3 outlets respectively, at 10pm, be part of Guinness Live 2011!
Join us and watch us improve in this 4 months! :D

Food for thought.

Something that I've posted 2 days ago, here sharing with you guys :)

Try to see things at a brighter side, and you'll see the light. Do everything with a smile, and all will be worthwhile :)

I love what I'm currently going through now, even though I'm still lacking a lot of things, I'm thankful for what I've got.

It takes a lot, for me to reach such a state.
Finally,
I'm not feeling inferior.
I'm no longer emotional.
I'm in fact smiling everyday.

This is something that I've always wanted, to smile and laugh with confidence.
I'm definitely going to continue this, and no one is gonna take that smile away from me :)
Hope that everyone can laugh with all your might, because a happy person makes a pretty person :D

I'm Back! Sort of~

Haven't been blogging, not that I've lost touch of blogging, just that I don't have the time to.
From the start of June Holiday, I haven't gotten a time to really rest a little.
Received a shocking news which led me grieving even now, couldn't go to school because I was at Great-Granny's wake for the first week of June Holiday.
It's been 3 weeks, but I'm not letting go, completely.
Takes time to do so, because she's been with me ever since I was born.

When I see my grandma crying and saying that her mum is gone, my heart aches real badly.
It's like, she's received 72 years of love from her mum and she was all healthy before she passed away.
It's really something that isn't easy to let go of.
But well, life and death isn't something that any one of us can control.
So... Yeah.

And life goes on, with knowing that I didn't do well for my Mid Year papers.
Seriously, all these just made me gave up on working hard.
I'm sick and tired of all these, hope to quit school right now.
Thinking of it for 3 weeks, and the thought of it is strong, still.
Damn. Sick. And. Tired. Of. All. Those. Useless. Studying.

And the only motivation for me to go to school is Dance Practise.
Full-stop.


Whatever. Stop this shit Benita.
Goodnight people.
Hate to say this, but I hate school.

Mr. Taxi

I'm gonna learn this dance soon...
Just wait ;)

It must put to an end.

It's late at night, yet I can't seem to fall asleep.
The feeling is really suffocating me, I can't seem to get over it.
Tears been falling, non-stop.
I couldn't stop it from rolling down my cheeks, it seemed like a spoiled tap.

I think, it's time.
Friday the 13th, a great start with a miserable end.
I think, it's time.
Time to say, goodbye.

To you, thank you for the memories that you've given me.
All the days when we whats-app together, the times when you cheered me up when I'm down.
Those days were really great, even though it seemed really far-fetched and unreal.
I've grown feelings for you, and I guess it's the time to let go.
It's really tough for me, because my feelings got deeper.
I have no idea if all your words to me are genuine pieces or not, I'll treat it as it is.
Please don't break the little trust I had in you, leave it as a beautiful memory.
At least, I feel that someone actually cares for me.
I felt that I'm being cared for, at once.

I've always been guessing if it was just a game that you wanted to play.
Thinking if it's a bet that you had with your friends.
I never asked as I hate knowing it all my doubts are proven to be true.
I wished that I'm being paranoid.
I hope that I am.

Days passed, and I guess everything has died down.
Your life should have been back onto track, while mine has been lost track a little.
I'm quite naive, because I'm really inexperienced in relationship.
Never had a boyfriend before, had never once tried being love by a guy.
Was never being cared for, was never being seen as a girl by any guy.
Your presence made me feel that I can be a normal girl as well.
But, it's coming to an end.

You will be back to who you are, and I will searching for myself.
I will be fine, like I've always said, though I've never been fine.
It's just another dream, I guess.
夢醒了，日子照樣過。
Life goes on...
Goodbye, thanks for everything.

Edited: 11.40am
But, I just can't seem to let go of it.
Shouldn't have fallen in the first place, but it's just a feeling that strikes.
Well...

SR DANCE TEAM!

It's quite a random one, but I really want to dedicate this post to my lovely SR Dance Team!
I love you guys a lot, really :)

How weird it is when I rant about not being able to bond with them and all on my blog...
But hey, we are closer now and we are some sort of a lovely family <3
True enough, I was the one not being able to open up, causing a lot of people to misunderstand me and so.
This is just me, so pardon me, I take a longer to open up...
Blame it on my past experiences >.<

But really, I love you guys!
I love this big family!
Our irritating, but fun and loving Dance Instructor Mr Dan,
Our never-fail-to-be-sarcastic teacher-in-charge Ms Tan and Ms Tan and Ms Tan,
Our caring new teacher-in-charge Mrs Tan,
and our lovely, fun, crazy, eccentric and whatsoever descriptive vocabulary that you can use to describe our family members :
SR DANCERS!

Man, how I wish to list down all the names, but the list is too long eh :x
Forgive me if I didn't list down all, I tend to get lazy at times like that, especially when I'm sick >.<
Yeah, sick again! ARGH! :(

Seriously, I took part in 6 SYF central judging ( 2 for Guzheng in Primary School, 3 for Choir in Primary and Secondary School and 1 for Dance in Junior College),
and I have to admit that this year's SYF is the most memorable one to me.
No pun intended, but really, it's really the most memorable one.
Maybe because of the pain, the blood, the sweat, and all moments that we had together...
We encourage each other when we feel damn frustrated with ourselves, we cared for each other when we're injured, and we helped each other when we missed some practices (Okay, it's all about me >.<)
however, it's these gestures that made us feel that we are not alone.
We are a team.
WE ARE A FAMILY! :D



I know that I'm not a good dancer, in terms of techniques, lines, movements, expressions and even the commitment in it, but I told myself that I will improve.
Indeed, I can say that I've practiced what I preached.
From a person who knows nuts about contemporary, could not even do splits, till now that I'm able to do some :)
But I'm still trying hard, to be much better than this, because I found my passion in it.

I think Arts is my life, since young :)
Started singing at the age of 3, learning the piano at age of 4 but stopped and continued at 16, playing the guzheng at the age of 7, I never know that I love to dance...
Learnt Chinese Ballet at the age of 10, and all sorts of genre of dance like Hip Hop and Jazz, but I still find no passion in it.
It's only when I entered SR Dance, met Mr Dan, this is then I realised that I love to dance.
I've said this before in our Heart-To-Heart-Talk session, but Imma say it once again...
It's Mr Dan who made me found passion in dancing :)
THANK YOU MR DAN!

Thank you dancers, Thank you Mr Dan, Thank you Ms Tans and Mrs Tan!
Thanks for making this happen and enabling us to clinch a Gold in this year's SYF!
I love you guys and hope that you guys love me too!
And sorry to make you guys read such a long and wordy post...
I don't camwhore as much as you guys do eh >.<
But still, I thank you guys to read up till the end (if you guys really do), LOVE YOU!

XOXO,
Benita!!!!!!! AHNEEMACHIMAEH~~~~~