So yesterday

It's like, the 6th of November today.
3 more papers left for me, and I am gaining freedom soon.
However, I don't really feel much anxiety in me.
I feel regretful.

I've been wondering, have I really been putting effort for this.
Answer is... not really.
I do study, however it's not enough.
All right, stop the 'enough' crap, but really, you have no idea how much time have I wasted.
Screwed Add Math, screwed Literature, screwed English.
Seriously, it's like my whole life being screwed.
If I really can't score well for my O's, this is it.
Meet my doom.

No matter how many times I told myself not to think of the past events, I still do think of them.
I will still look back to my performances, and truthfully, I screwed ALL performances.
It's literally ALL.

I feel so shameful, I've let down my teacher.
If I were to have a chance to turn back time, I will fight for my rights to swim.
Due to lack of swimming, my stamina really dropped.
Ah, I shall stop.
No point crying over spilled milk.
Look to the front, and I fought my swimming rights.
Hope mum would not turn back her words again.

I miss swimming, I miss everything I once had.
I want them back, but I know I have to put in extra effort to earn them back as I've lost them before.
I am not going to waste any time.
I am going to work, treat everyone with my smile and best service they had ever experience.
I am going to learn, to reach my target before 18.
I want to tell God, I have the rights to get what I'm supposed to get.

Wait and see peeps :)
I'm 16, I do know how to think when I am 13, but with no determination.
However, I do know now, because I've grown.
Not wasting every time and moment, I am working hard towards my passion.

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WAIT! Why am I so emotional?
Laughs, all right, this is getting nowhere.
But, I meant everything I said here. :)
I will read back this post, to remind myself what I've said.
I have to practise what I preached, in order to be a successful and trustworthy person.
People who don't trust me, just go away.
No, come to me and I will prove to you. :D
Sounds fake, but hell no, I am not fake :D
All right all right, I shall really stop.

It's so yesterday that I started my paper and here I am now, left with 3 more papers.
WOW! :D
HWAITING!
Annyeong hasaeyo, cho neun Jeong Gi Young imnida.
Mannaso ban gap sumnida! :D