I’ve lost myself in music to the point where I don’t have any interest in the rest of the world - T.O.P

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Devastation

It's getting late, and I've just started using the computer.
Well, I slept from 1800-2200, I'm tired.
Have been paying attention from 0800-1615, this is hectic, it's tiresome.
I hoped that I can turn back the time, to not join the competition, and I wouldn't have a hard time catching up my work.
I hate it, seriously, especially for my Additional Mathematics, what I've missed is a huge topic.
However, come to think of that, I wouldn't get to know my B, Hui Shi. =D
And because of her, I get to know someone, and it makes me miserable.

I shouldn't have lit up the glimpse of hope I had in me, shouldn't have.
I should have stayed out with all those false hopes, false signs.
That person, you are so disgusting.
I wonder why, but I have this feeling.
I am not blaming you, I am blaming myself.
I blame myself for putting in so much for this.
I blame myself for burying myself into this grave this early.
I blame myself for believe in you.
I blame myself for ****** you.

Sorry for this moody post, I am just...paranoid.
At this point of time, my mood is down at the bottom of the gorge.
Deep down, I am sad.
I may seem to be very happy on plurk, but I am just hiding myself.
I am just trying to make myself feel happy, to not care about those stupid things.
Fine, I shall end here, I have had enough.
Goodnight, goodbye. =(

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