Enlightenment

Posting my mundane life, I would rather post my thoughts. =D
See my Plurk, I did said that my left knee hurts right?
My facebook did mention too right?
Alright, thing happens this way.

Yesterday, I went for my Physical Education and took National Physical Fitness Assessment (NAPFA) test.
Did Inclined Pull-Up and Sit and Reach, got quite a good result but not my standard.
Well, my stamina dropped, blame me. =(
Anyway, when I was doing my Shuttle Run, running for second lapse, I lost my balance and fell.
Face facing the floor, I was lucky enough that I can see and hear properly as in the past, I couldn't see a thing nor hear a thing when I fall.
However, my right palm and left knee was injured.
My right palm was numb and swollen, I could feel nothing when I press my palm.
My left knee was bleeding, was feeling alright at first, but painful afterward.

Anyway, this was just a brief story of yesterday's happening.
Went for one to one Geography supplementary with Miss Chua, and I would like to say, you enlightened me real much.
I had queries about life and friendship, and she told me things like that.

"Not because of my popularity, not because of what I've done, not because of my background, but because of me, they are my friends."

Indeed, true friends are like that, and I am glad that I've got a few of friends who treated me truly not because of anything but me.
I do question, why do people don't understand me?
This is what she told me,

"Because you are afraid of getting hurt, you create a wall, an invisible wall that keeps you away from your classmates and people around you. When they (classmates) wanted to get close to you, you often create that wall that makes them keep away from you. Cynical, you often think things very negatively, you are too strict and stern. Therefore, a lot of people keep away from you."

Yes, I am cynical, I am like Dill in To Kill A Mockingbird who often think things negatively.
I wonder why, but I am not as open as anyone.
Because I'm afraid of getting hurt, I create a barrier to protect myself and due to this, I am often unhappy.
I don't get it, before talking to Miss Chua, why should we take life that easily when life is that short.
Guess what she told me?
She said that it is because life is short, we have to take things lightly to be happy, to enjoy through this short life.
It's like a knock at my head, I woke up.
Really, it makes sense.
Having a sad and unhappy short life, why not live your life happily and not to regret that you are always happy.
Right?

Thanks a lot Miss Chua, you are great, seriously.
Enlightenment, my life is brighter now.
Lights are lit up, and I am brave enough to face all challenges.
"No one is able to mock you except for yourself"
I will remember this, no one will be able to mock me, unless me myself feels sad about the mockery made by people.
Thanks a lot.

This post is also for my SISTERLOVE, I am now having a crazy chat with her.
We will live our life happily, no matter what thing struck our life.
There are so many happy things waiting for us to encounter, why dwell over sad matter?
Right?
Anyway, I JUST CAN'T WAIT FOR SATURDAY TO COME!
WE ARE GOING TO SHOP TILL WE DROP, EAT KOREAN CUISINE AND SHE IS GOING TO STAY OVER AT MY HOUSE.
ISN'T THIS CRAZY???
Laughs, I am crazy and hyper active now.
Pardon me, when I started doing things, like at earlier time, I am packing up my room, I have more energy for other things.
Weird, but this is me.
I am happy to be me, alright?

Okay, got to go.
Goodnight people, stay happy always! =D
Everyday is a brand new day and beautiful day.
B-E-A-utiful~