Real person, real feeling? I wish.

I am so not going to blog about my daily life today, it's so mundane.
Everyday is about school, examinations and all, my brain's gonna to burst in no time.
I've been in a diluted concentration mind, I am not focusing.
Teacher's been telling to focus, because GCE Ordinary Level Examinations in round the corner.
However, I just can't.
I am so going to flunk my preparatory examinations, and MUM's going to show me her colours.
I am so dead~
BENITA, BUCK UP!

Oh well, let's talk about other things.
It's been more than a month ever since I finished watching 'Zettai Kareshi'(Absolute Boyfriend), including the special.
To what I've expected, I cried like a crazy woman when watching the special.
The tap in my eyes is not working well, I can't control the flow.
It's exceptionally sad when Knight asked Namikiri why is he a robot, it gave me a stab in my heart.
A robot, could feel so much like a human, for a human, but what about a real human?
Human changes his heart as time goes by, and could simply forget what's happened in the past.
All the sweet talks, all promises, could disappear with the wind.
It's unmeasurable for the depth of a human's heart, we can never think of what they are thinking and feeling.
Everything seems so fake, so vague, so mistake.

Though Knight is a robot, but he is feeling like a human because of love.
Who actually knows the definition of love?
No one could answer it.
When you are in a relationship, you would say 'I love You'.
But when relationship comes to an end, all the 'love' said doesn't seems to exist.
They are forgotten and buried.
However, a robot is living on, because of the promises made.
They would never forget the promises made, and their 'heart' never change.
Though they are not human, but so what for me.
What I want, is a reliable person, a person who can keep up to his promise.
A real human, might have feelings, but, changes over time.

I know that there's no such thing as eternal love, but at least, I want promises to be kept.
Till now, there's someone has yet to fulfill any of the promises made to me.
Kinda disappointed, and that's why, I would rather have no feeling.
At least, I won't feel pain and disappointed.
Fine, I shall not dwell on it, there would be a better tomorrow.
I know, and I can ensure.

As, there will be meteor shower tomorrow, at 2 am.
Everyone, please do face the East side.
If you do not know where, take a compass! =D
I shall go off now, I have a lot of things to do.
Goodbye people.