Forgetting

How long have I not been posting here?
I can't really remember and I'm tired to recall anything.
I can vaguely remember that I came from Genting with a pissed mood.
I can't stand people jumping queue, that's just so annoying.
Setting bad example in front of their children too.
Retarded assholes.

All right, relax Benita, it's none of your business even if they are becoming some scumbags or whatsoever. :D
I think I'm gonna post the photos real soon, I'm just lazy and reluctant in doing so these few days.

Anyway, back to yesterday, went to Ray's house for fondue.
Guess what?
Fondue became truffle, however, it's nice. :)
Junior, Ray's dog is cute too, so adorable and so obedient.
I want to keep a dog, but my mum just wouldn't allow, and the responsibility's too huge.
Fine, I shall wait.
Mum said that I'm free to do whatever I want when I'm 21.
So, if 2012 prophecy doesn't come, I'll just keep a dog.
Travel overseas with my friends.
Get myself a tattoo at the back.
And lots more.
Just wait :)

Just cried, like finally.
So what if I'm ugly, short and fat?
It's nothing got to do with anyone.
It's my life, it's me, and I've got to like myself more.
I realised, I'm back to square one.
No confidence, no courage.
What the hell.
Whatever.
Bye.

Dying~

When boredom strikes, it means that I'm dying.
TOUCH WOOD!!!
Ha ha!

Oh well, not feeling real great for no reason.
Just, a sudden depress.
Ray gave me a good suggestion, and I'm trying my very best to do it.
I'm so going to forget a lot of things when I'm in Genting.
Hope that I'm going to have fun there and buy lots of chocolate. :D

Okay, a lot of people know that I don't like chocolate and I don't eat them 2 years ago.
HOWEVER, I'm craving for it.
I'm craving more for fondue though. :D
Can't wait to cook, am so going to poison Bro with my food. :x

All right, I'm just trying to be happy, but it seems no help.
So, I shall just go off and continue packing my room.
Goodbye people!

Prom night.

Just came back from prom, wasn't that fun as expected.
Videos were well made and stuff, but I just couldn't join in the fun they were enjoying.
It's very boring when no one wanna dance with me.
Everyone's busy taking pictures.
Oh yeah, talking about taking pictures, I'm SMART enough to have not put in memory card in my camera.
Great, brought camera that can't save any pictures. =.=

I'm waiting for the pictures to be tagged to me on facebook, so that I can save it and post them.
So meanwhile, no pictures.
Sorry. :(

Well well, I can't go out tomorrow and on Sunday.
Thanks to mum, she wants me to pack my room before I can go out for next week.
I feel like running away, but I can't bear to.
So, gotta bear with it and no fondue session with Ray and Bro. :(:(:(:(:(
Fine, I shall think things at better ways.
After coming back from Genting, I'm going to hang out with a lot of people!
I'll be going to Genting on 24th to 26th of November, which is next Tuesday to Thursday.
So, do miss me yeah? :D
Darn, illness acting up again!
Who will miss me though? Ha!

All right, that will be it for today, nothing to post though.
Goodnight everyone! :D

??!!

Why this feeling?
I feel weird.
I feel unsafe.
I feel insecure.
I feel disturbed.
I feel like having someone to love.
However, it's hard to find one.
Well, it's okay, should get used to it already.
Why?
Everyone is practical and realistic. :D
I am one too. Ha.

Anyway, just came back from Grandma's birthday celebration.
Was rather pissed off by my little cousins.
Shall calm down, they are still young though.
However, Ray made my day!
Oh gosh! I'm so going to love him!
LOL! Keep it a secret.
Shh~ :)

Anyway, pictures for today! :D


Grandma, I LOVE YOU! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D

Grandpa, grandma and 2 irritating Adorable Cousins! :D

She's more vain than me, my cousin- Rinns.
That's all for today, other pictures a bit screwed, trying to photoshop it :D
Goodbye everyone! :D

KUDOS!

Reached home at 12, again!
Benita's gone bad, real bad! Ha ha!
It's been like this ever since I started hanging out with Bro and Ray.
Mum isn't really happy about it, however, she's glad that I never failed to reach home safely.

Back to yesterday, met up with Bro first, waited for B.
That rich guy, went to TOPSHOP and TOPMAN to do whatever it's called.
B came, and we went to find her.
Kinda bored in the beginning, but the real fun starts when Ray came!
Went to buy tickets for 2012, 7 in total ( including B's friends ).
As we have about an hour plus time before the start of the movie, we went to Xin Wang Hong Kong Cafe to eat.
It's like a usual procedure for us to eat at when we are in Cineleisure.
Cam-whore-d and stuff, I'm the only one eating main course, they ate Red Bean Ice. :)

Movie started, was a little bit draggy at the beginning.
HOWEVER, it started to be so exciting at the middle and the end.
I'm grabbing B's hand almost all the time, my heart almost jumped out while watched the movie.
Exaggerating but yeah, it's pretty.... GOSH! I can't think of the best word to describe.
All right, going on.
Played the game that I've been playing ever since I knew Ray.
3rd time in total for now, I believe I'll still play the game when I see him.
Pretty fun though, Ray's a nice person :D
Anyway, he's my senior, guess he graduated before I enter the school.

Went to his house, but before that, went to Newton Circle to pack food.
That's when the 2nd time of the game starts.
HOT CAUCASIAN!!! Damn!
B, you know what I mean huh? :D

Went Ray's house, watched them finish eating as I was not hungry, and THE FUN STARTS!
Took videos of the adultery scenes and whatever!
Damn fun, it's especially funny as Ray is a quick thinker, Bro was dumbstruck!
Played Truth Or Dare too, all contents were kept as secrets :x
Bro was traumatised, he's so funny and cute (?).

Left Ray's house soon after the game ended as mum is asking me to go home.
Boarded the bus, which gives me long and boring ride all the time, home and on the way, I text-ed Bro.
He's still traumatised and I have to sing to him.
Well, I offered that and of course he wants to hear me sing.
I sang a song and that song was stuck in his brain.
Scary, but that's what happened to almost everyone I know.

DIGRESS... DIGRESS...

Reached home, and was affected by the movie, I told my mum 'I Love You' 3 times.
Cherish whatever you have now, if 2012 is really true.
Don't be naive and stubborn to think that this is a scam as everyone is not really doing their part to safe their homes.
This is the price that we have to pay for not cherishing our homelands.
Start saving the Earth now, it's not a scam if we don't.
Don't think that I'm crazy or what, but an advice, don't take things for granted.
Understand, SAMONIM?

Shall post up the photos which were taken these few days soon.
I realised that I've met up with Ray for 4 times in 7 days.
Meeting up with him on Saturday for Fondue and Sunday for Singing Lesson ( Because of Bro ).
THIS IS CRAZY!!!
However, there's always fun and laughter with him :D
Adding on, he's a mirror image of me, except that he's the English Version of me.
Laughs!

All right, got to go.
Water supply's been cut due to changing of water pipes by the construction worker and only top most 2 level of the building been affected.
WHAT THE...!!!
Fine, it's my fate, accept it!
Ha!
Okay, goodbye and good morning everyone! :D

Misses~

Met up with Rachael B and Benjamin Bro yesterday.
Met up with latter first, to have our singing lesson.
Shall not elaborate more, it was drastic!
Was helping bro to train his exam's songs and ended up a laughing session of me and Raymond ( Bro's BFF ).
A tips for people who cannot pitch well, listen to the song for at least 100 times to familiarize the flow of the tune.
Record it down to hear if you went off tune or pitch, and try to listen to the flow of entire sentence again.
This is what I told Bro, because, oh well, shouldn't say much. :D

Then me, Ray, Bro and KR went to Far East to have our lunch at Ramen Ten.
I'm sorry but the chawanmushi was not up to standard.
Sushi was all right but the teriyaki chicken tasted like Ba Kua.
Lame-ness, but yeah.
We waited long for the food, and the waiter was kinda shy (?), I don't know about it.
Bla Bla Bla... B CAME!
It's been a long time since I last saw her, still as pretty as ever.
And what happened to me?
I've became more and more haggard, became fatter and still not growing tall.
Bloody hell (*&@#$%^(*&!!!!

Anyway, slacked around at Cineleisure, because we planned to watch 2012 but full house.
So yeah, slacked around and chatted lots.
Cam whore-d at the void deck, took lots of photos but I can't seem to upload to my laptop.
Wonder what's wrong with my USB port...
Yeah, anyway, roamed around Orchard and MR. BENJAMIN KHOH is free enough to bring us to Zara and try some new style of outfits.
When I am trying, I just feel a flock of crows flew pass me.
Lame! All right, TOO MANY THINGS TO BLOG ABOUT!

Don't feel like saying much, but I reached home at 12!
It's considered the first time I'm reaching home this late(?)
I forgot but it was a fun day! :D
Meeting up with Jeslyn Darling to Plaza Singapura and meeting Bro (again!) at Dhoby Ghaut for Christmas Carol's Premiere.
So, better get prepared!
Goodbye! :D

:D

Just a random one, it strikes me when I'm wide awake.
I WANT THAT PURPLE GUITAR WHICH JUST COST $139!
It's freaking cheap, however, I have to save till a certain amount because I have to buy some other expensive stuff too.

There's a lot, really.
Trust me, they are not cheap and I have to WORK!!!!
Ha ha! Any work to intro?
I feel like trying to sing at pub for TGIF :D
Shall take a look at it :D

All right, I gotta go!
Going out soon for some stupid stuff which I am not interested in it.
RAWR! Mum dragged me :(
So, goodbye!

Round of applause.

Firstly, give BENITA a round of applause because she blogged!
All right, this was lame.
Back to topic, I am giving you a round of applause!
YES, YOU!

I pity you, you poor bastard.
You are such a pitiful bastard that don't worth me pitying.
Oh well, I'm glad that you are out of my life. :D
You are incredibly disgusting.
Ha! Don't understand?
Oh well, think of what you did.
:D
I wasn't able to be as bastard as you, you are so good!
WOW! You've won, 10 OUT OF 10!

Sorry, I'm just venting my anger.
If YOU know who are YOU, good for you.
Anyway, I really hope that you know who are you, because you MIGHT reflect and not hurt other girls.
You asked if I hate you, I treat it as if I don't understand what are you asking.
However in my heart, I got an O.S in my heart, I HATED YOU TO THE CORE. :D
I want to thank you too, you should know what you thought me yeah? :D

Goodbye, bastard.
Go back to your pitiful world, I will pray for you, for a rebirth.
Ha!

WOO! Felt better :D
Was just venting, because I really need to spit it out or I will go crazy.
Though I had no feelings now, but I do feel angry for all the past lies made.
Well, forget it.
Shall have a sleep and so, goodnight :D

EDITED:
This post is for one of my family members :D
Don't guess much, not good for you to know :)

Hello My Friend :D

Freedom, my new friend, has came to find me at 1500 sharp.
Glad to know him, and because of him, I realised that...
LIFE!
IS!
SO!
WONDERFUL!
Oh yes, Life is wonderful! :D

However, I am not going to update more about my life today, because today isn't a thrilling and exciting day though.
Boring, and past few days were too.
So, I maybe updating tomorrow, because I am working!

I am helping at my uncle's shop at Queensway shopping centre located near Alexandra Road.
So, anyone wants to make new spectacles or buy contact lenses, feel free to patronise :D
It's 100% guarantee that the price is reasonable.
All my coloured and daily lenses are from my uncle, and I didn't have once having swollen.
I had once is not because of the lenses, but because of me.
Laughs!
So, yeah, feel free to visit yeah? :D
Thanks a lot! :D

So, goodbye everyone!
Have a nice and sweet dream :D

So yesterday

It's like, the 6th of November today.
3 more papers left for me, and I am gaining freedom soon.
However, I don't really feel much anxiety in me.
I feel regretful.

I've been wondering, have I really been putting effort for this.
Answer is... not really.
I do study, however it's not enough.
All right, stop the 'enough' crap, but really, you have no idea how much time have I wasted.
Screwed Add Math, screwed Literature, screwed English.
Seriously, it's like my whole life being screwed.
If I really can't score well for my O's, this is it.
Meet my doom.

No matter how many times I told myself not to think of the past events, I still do think of them.
I will still look back to my performances, and truthfully, I screwed ALL performances.
It's literally ALL.

I feel so shameful, I've let down my teacher.
If I were to have a chance to turn back time, I will fight for my rights to swim.
Due to lack of swimming, my stamina really dropped.
Ah, I shall stop.
No point crying over spilled milk.
Look to the front, and I fought my swimming rights.
Hope mum would not turn back her words again.

I miss swimming, I miss everything I once had.
I want them back, but I know I have to put in extra effort to earn them back as I've lost them before.
I am not going to waste any time.
I am going to work, treat everyone with my smile and best service they had ever experience.
I am going to learn, to reach my target before 18.
I want to tell God, I have the rights to get what I'm supposed to get.

Wait and see peeps :)
I'm 16, I do know how to think when I am 13, but with no determination.
However, I do know now, because I've grown.
Not wasting every time and moment, I am working hard towards my passion.

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WAIT! Why am I so emotional?
Laughs, all right, this is getting nowhere.
But, I meant everything I said here. :)
I will read back this post, to remind myself what I've said.
I have to practise what I preached, in order to be a successful and trustworthy person.
People who don't trust me, just go away.
No, come to me and I will prove to you. :D
Sounds fake, but hell no, I am not fake :D
All right all right, I shall really stop.

It's so yesterday that I started my paper and here I am now, left with 3 more papers.
WOW! :D
HWAITING!
Annyeong hasaeyo, cho neun Jeong Gi Young imnida.
Mannaso ban gap sumnida! :D