I wish...
I could be richer.
I can own a DSLR camera.
I can sing and dance without any hesitation.
I can get near to BIG BANG when they come to Singapore for Korean Pop Night Concert 2010.
I can lessen my mum's burden, in this case, earning money myself and able to pay for things that OTHERS are able to pay.
I can be courageous and ask someone to leave my life. FOR.EH.VER.
I can be stronger to ask people to respect others as well.
I can have the power to ask people to NOT be apathetic.
But I know, I can't.
Life is just so. Harsh.
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Awake, thinking.
*This was supposed to be posted on 27th May 2010, but I forgot why did I not post it. So, posting it now, therefore the first few sentences are a little weird. Sorry for that!
It's going to 2 and I'm widely awake.
Firstly, I have no school in the morning.
Secondly, I'm not tired for god knows what reason.
I don't know why am I thinking this way, and I'm not trying to manipulate your thinking.
I'm just sharing my thoughts to you lovelies.
My health isn't really good nowadays, basically, it's asthma the one pestering me.
I've been wheezing for days, but I tried to stagger my breathing to make me feel better.
However, it's been 3 days and it's really irritating.
It's like, even now, I'm feeling out of breath.
Life is unpredictable, and life can be vulnerable too.
I may appear to be strong at times, but you never know when am I going to collapse.
I'm afraid once I collapsed, I might never be able to stand up or even regain consciousness.
I'm not kidding or taking this as a joke, it is that serious.
Though I've been scoring zero for my love life, I'm glad to know so many awesome friends.
They are like colour pencils, they brought colours to my plain life to make it interesting.
Falling for someone, hating someone, feeling miserable for someone, I've experienced them before.
Even though my life is like a Hong Kong drama, I'm still glad that God gave me this kind of life.
I do grow from those experiences, as I'm more stubborn than other people, I needed more experiences to change it.
I'm grateful to my mum, she brought me up painstakingly.
She's my angel, she's my everything.
I wouldn't want to end my life this soon as I've not repay her with ANYTHING yet.
She's still working hard to support me, to give me allowance.
I feel that I'm a failed daughter as I always bicker with her, making her angry and always disappoint her.
Whats more, I tend to fall sick easily when I was young, she has to work doubly hard to take care of me.
When I'm lying on the bed, unwell, she wouldn't be able to sleep and keep taking care of me.
But because of my character, I don't know how to express my love to her.
I'm ashamed of myself.
I don't post these because I want sympathy, I'm posting something from the bottom of my heart.
I really feel that life is short, vulnerable and unpredictable.
It's going to 2 and I'm widely awake.
Firstly, I have no school in the morning.
Secondly, I'm not tired for god knows what reason.
I don't know why am I thinking this way, and I'm not trying to manipulate your thinking.
I'm just sharing my thoughts to you lovelies.
My health isn't really good nowadays, basically, it's asthma the one pestering me.
I've been wheezing for days, but I tried to stagger my breathing to make me feel better.
However, it's been 3 days and it's really irritating.
It's like, even now, I'm feeling out of breath.
Life is unpredictable, and life can be vulnerable too.
I may appear to be strong at times, but you never know when am I going to collapse.
I'm afraid once I collapsed, I might never be able to stand up or even regain consciousness.
I'm not kidding or taking this as a joke, it is that serious.
Though I've been scoring zero for my love life, I'm glad to know so many awesome friends.
They are like colour pencils, they brought colours to my plain life to make it interesting.
Falling for someone, hating someone, feeling miserable for someone, I've experienced them before.
Even though my life is like a Hong Kong drama, I'm still glad that God gave me this kind of life.
I do grow from those experiences, as I'm more stubborn than other people, I needed more experiences to change it.
I'm grateful to my mum, she brought me up painstakingly.
She's my angel, she's my everything.
I wouldn't want to end my life this soon as I've not repay her with ANYTHING yet.
She's still working hard to support me, to give me allowance.
I feel that I'm a failed daughter as I always bicker with her, making her angry and always disappoint her.
Whats more, I tend to fall sick easily when I was young, she has to work doubly hard to take care of me.
When I'm lying on the bed, unwell, she wouldn't be able to sleep and keep taking care of me.
But because of my character, I don't know how to express my love to her.
I'm ashamed of myself.
I don't post these because I want sympathy, I'm posting something from the bottom of my heart.
I really feel that life is short, vulnerable and unpredictable.
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